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Wanted you for so long, but we came together as friends
And that’s what we are, but I'm driving to the deep end
I’m asking you to take me, I’m asking to be yours
I see now you’ll forsake me
I should have known the course course course course
When you turned me down
The lights in the stars went out
When you turned away
The sky turned cold and grey
Wanted you for so long, but we came together as friends
And you tell me I should be happy with the way that it ends
I’m asking you to hold me, I’m askin for your kiss
It ended up like you told me, it ended up like this this this this
When you turned me down
The lights in the stars went out
When you turned away
The sky turned cold and grey
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there was a clean waiter
who brought me some bread
nothing quite as empty
as the light upon his head
In a room full of people
talking out loud
I never seen a reason
for a mouth to open
I never seen a reason
and show that it was proud
I asked him for some tea
And smiled before he left
nothing quite as trodden on than values with some heft
it was cold outside
hollow as a worm
and inside people stripped
inside people stripped
inside people stripped and made believe they were warm
but I couldn't be clean in vain
I'm aware of great dominion in pain
and I couldn't chew another piece of bread
knowing every fool to waste it
was starving or dead...
there was a clean waiter
who expected a tip
nothing really started it
my heart just heard a rip
I pulled a jolly rifle
full of godly fire out
I never seen a reason
for a mouth to open
I never seen a reason
and show that it was proud
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Wounded people
Got nobody left
They pass all their hours
Their worst and their best
Knowing that some day
They'll fail every test
They know they'll wind up with less
Wounded me I
Hide in the shadows
I hide where no one can see
Me I don't want any sympathy
There's nothing but wounds left of me
Wounded people
Are already hit
They've heard all the buzz words
And all kinds of shit
Wounded people
Come to be kissed
Come is the limit of bliss
Wounded me I
Wouldn't be hurting
So bad
If I didn't have hope
Me I gather
All
the stares around
And blind the ones who never have to cope
cum is the limit of bliss
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Go insane
man
of the endless domain
Go insane
man
of the endless domain
Everybody's watching you
But just don't care what you're saying
Scum of the sky
Stars
of the earth
in my eye
Scum of the sky
Stars
of the earth
in my eye
Watching you could break my heart
but who could turn and sigh?
Broken one
Family
has grown up
and gone
Broken one
Family
has grown up
and gone
No one wants to turn around
And look at what they've done
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I am Loki
I am one of
who you seafarers
always make fun of
All see I'm right now
All know I knew
When a black broom drops
Into the brew
I'll dry the sea
I have the map
of the god
to my soul
my eyes were pierced
through the blackest hole
I saw when my father sailed hid
His ship was split
and his blood be spilled
I'll dry the sea
Some of you
Now find shame
in your deeds
begging me now
not to dry up the sea
Was it not you
who raped my young bride?
Carried her off to drown
in the tide?
So, I'll dry the sea
Within each man
Could he but learn
is all of creation
To build or to burn
You know my signs now
see my eclipse
you face your life's work
bank with the ships
I'll dry the sea
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Mamma the voice came from heaven
It's not like there's anything wrong
Angel
When you're in my arms
The voices lose
All of their charms
I run from the nightmares to the arms of my bride
HER FACE IS SHADOWED BY A TRICK OF THE LIGHT
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By now there should be some way to stop the pistols ringing in my ears
make it disappear make it disappear
I haven't eaten in 20 days
Without the sound of guns ruin my meal
Let me heal let me heal
I warm up to insect spray and keep my head buried in a hole
no more soul no more soul
Hang my guns on a graveyard fence if you never see me again
You could rock me to sleep, but I'd rather you stone me to death
By now there should be some way to stop the pistols ringing in my ears
make it disappear make it disappear
Blood gusher gush me up a sacrifice so I can walk away
Take it all away take it all away
By now the fountain of my blood should gush into a crimson tide
Suicide SUICIDE
Hang my guns on a graveyard fence if you never see me again
You could rock me to sleep, but I'd rather you stone me to death
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Now I’m smarter Now I’m older Now my edicts are much bolder
Now my arms are withered on the beach
Now you hate me
Now I’m ready Now I’m prouder Now I’m faster Now I’m louder
Now my ribs are chewed on by the dogs
Now you hate me
Now I’m taller Now I’m leaner Now I’m hungrier and meaner
Now my house is toppled into dust
Now you hate me
Now I’m older Now I’m wizer Now I’m King and hypnotizer
Children kick my head around in the street
Now you hate me
I can’t understand how you put up for 1000 years
with all the stress and terror I command
Every second scared you more than most knew in their lifetimes
Before I was the ruler of your land
Now I’m stronger Now I’m wilder Now my poisons taste much viler
Now my chrome is beaten down in rage
Now you hate me
Now I’m quicker Now I’m clever Now I’m more alive than ever
Now my torso’s sinking in the sea
Now you hate me
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I hate my heart baby
unlikely love may be
just what it plans
when it hides in the dark
Wakes me from apathy
Puts crazy dreams in me
Burns like a fire when it's only a spark
I'll hold out for you
any time my heart has room
and I'll wait for you
even til the dawn of doom
Defy the brain
it will tell you love's insane
it will cast you into everlasting pain
I hate my heart lover
unlikely dreams cover
all that's to come
and whatever I've lost
Wakes me from apathy
Puts crazy dream in me
Hides every price
Til I pay every cost
I'll call out for you
If I think my heart is true
When I close my eyes
I can lose my self to you
I'm down and praying
And I know that I'm insane
cause I don't really hate my heart I hate my brain
We're gonna be together forever and I don't hate my heart
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There is no GOD there's just imaginary light
The Kingdom falls without a fight
There is no Prince of Evil
No one fears his might
There is no trembling earth to blight
It's killing me
I'm trying hard to see
To kneel before His throne and wash His feet
If Jesus can forgive me
Then I know I'll never die
but it's been so dark up in the sky
I don't have friends no more
The winds of winter bite
The Prince of Heaven's face is bright
We live in darkness but we need not dwell in fright
The dogs are locked up out of sight
A fiery sword
proclaiming LIGHT the lord
Come take my hand
Come rub my eyes
If Jesus can forgive me
Then I know I'll never die
but it's been so dark up in the sky
There is no GOD there's just imaginary light
We're headed for eternal night
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frequently
when asked to feed
the prisoner
what do we reply?
We smash the monster's head in
we torch him on a slate
but to let this bastard eat
would be an insult to our state
when you tell us
we must let him
exercise
Here's what we do
We slit the soles of his feet
Then we make him drag a stone
the chains cut in so deeply
He'll forget he had a home
It's so nice to have you back
You won't get ice
We'll break your back
It's so good
to have you in our grasp
whatever mark you've made
we'll mark it
black
Sometimes when there's too much work
and we can't watch all of them
We count of thugs to break them
we work them from inside
we're happy to remind them that there
is no place to hide
frequently
when asked to feed
the prisoner
what do we reply?
We smash the monster's head in
we torch him on a slate
but to let this bastard eat
would be an insult to our state
It's so nice to have you back
You won't get ice
We'll break your back
It's so good
to have you in our grasp
whatever mark you've made
we'll mark it
black
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You don't have to live like
A blind hooker anymore
I challenge them all
to buy you what you'll find
if you look behind
that door
well it's alright
it's alright
If you think that
They've gone too far
I know you've already lost
what the lowest
of the low have
robbed you for
I bought you a new bedspread
with the money that
I pawned my record for
to keep you warm
when you're lonely
so don't be blind and let it
ever touch the floor
well it's alright
it's alright
If you think that
They've gone too far
You don't have to live
like a blind hooker
anymore
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Death is a guy
with your ass on his mind
his work is pretty dirty
but he's always there on time
His face wears a grin
that life isn't in
His brother looks just like him
but there's not much work
for him
I'd like to say a few words
believe me
then you can
roll up your sleeves and eat me
this love that you want to leave me
is making his job
more easy
Death is a bloke
who is not much outspoke
his brother represents him
as he fights back tears
and chokes
His face is a mask
too timid to ask
and no one's really happy
when you give him one
more task
I'd like to say a few words
believe me
then you can
roll up your sleeves and eat me
this love that you want to leave me
is making his job
more easy
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Jack stood in his boat with his Bible raised up high
On the banks of the river stood a million guys
And over my head was a perfect "mackerel sky" (but it was actually mamatous)
Jack stood in his boat and talked to God
and then he died
Religion comes but one time in your life
It's harder to keep than a wife
It makes you feel so frail
Jack stood in his boat and talked to God
Jack never could sail
Jack was not so bad as far as false prophets go
And a million people still wait for his signs to show
And a mackerel sky is a beautiful way to see a cloud
Jack just talked to God and asked to hear his answer aloud
Religion comes but one time in your life
It's harder to keep than a wife
It makes you feel so frail
Jack stood in his boat and talked to God
Jack never could sail
Jack has the lamb
and the lamb is the life
and the boat is the middle
of eternal living
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Slush is dirtier than snow
and what am I doing here?
With cheap things on my loan
Slush is deeper too
You loaned me all I know
and I wouldn't listen
but now
now there won't be clean snow again
Slush is deadlier than snow
We used to go
watch the geese fly by
whenever it snowed
Now you want to join them
But don't you believe in all this?
Don't you ever want to come home?
In the snow
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As my body
turned to dust
I had a dream
a thousand naked women
chewing brain and spleen
I fell too high to stand it
I shivered in the pain
I burned them
in my brain
gentle tear kissed rain
And I fell
to sleep
all of my skin
fell grey
no one wants to
kiss you strange
I shook my skin and
sloughed off rain
I wet them til I started to cry
it was a bad dream
or was it a long death?
and I don't know why
But I'm going to miss you girls
All you heartless girls
I'm gonna miss you girls
yes I am
But no one
wants
to
Kiss
you strange
Kiss you strange
Very strange
I'm gonna miss you girls
kiss you strange strange
kiss you strange very strange
Come on now
I know you'll miss me too
At least one of you
Won't one of you
kiss me strange?
Very strange?
I'm gonna miss you girls
Yes I am...
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“Skin and Bones” represents one of two albums nearly lost to time. Recorded in 2003 and earlier, initially as a demo for a live show, featuring songs from my best set lists at the time, this and other original “intellectual property” including a complete fantasy trilogy in volumes of 50,000-70,000 words were seized by the Ruidoso Police Department after I was falsely accused of possessing child pornography.
No case was ever filed, no evidence found, and a forensic search of my devices yielded nothing illegal.
However, between February of 2017 and April of this year, my data was all impounded with me not having much hope of ever seeing the many songs, writings, and other personal files again.
The trauma of being accused, of being raided, of losing novels I had worked on for the past 20 years and was almost ready to publish was hard to take and marked the beginning of the most perilous times of my life, related to other difficulties.
The Child pornography raid occoured on the 15th of February, 2017 shortly before this album was made I got the call RPD to come up and recover my impounded property.
“Skin and Bones” is meant to be a companion album to “Blood and Guts” and/or a double album.
released May 11, 2020
